Some Scary News....

I am ok.....Here is what has happened over the last couple of weeks, and the scary news I received from the Dr.

I have a heart murmur. Not a major one, but one none the less. I had an EKG in 2004 when it was discovered, the Dr.'s were not overly worried.

So fast forward to 2 weeks ago, I went to the Dr., found out I had a UTI. While there I asked the Dr. if I needed to have the murmur checked out, It had been 6 years. He said yes.

So Last Tuesday (9-5) I went for a another EKG. The Dr. called with the results on Friday. I have a moderate to severe issue with one of my heart valves, and he wants me to see a Cardiologist.

I don't know much until I see the Cardiologist. I'm praying and hoping that this is nothing, but there is always that voice in the back of your head that tries to scare you.

Trying for another child has been put on hold until after I see the specialist....I am scared but have been doing a lot of praying, relying on God to give me the strength I need to get through this.

What really scared me is my PCP said that there is a 3-4 month wait for an appointment with a cardiologist but he is going to pull some strings to get me in within a couple weeks....eeekkkk.

For the time being, please just pray for me and for us.

Another disappointment...

So....this was not our month! I'm ok.....I really put a lot into this month and I an upset and disappointed that I am still a failure as a woman, but I will be okay. God has a plan for me, and I trust in Him!

On another note, John and I are on a break from trying to conceive. Not our choice, it is the Dr. and hopefully next cycle we can get back on track. Please pray we get to see the specialist sooner then later. (I will go into more detail in another post)


*** I am so happy for you JD!!!! Stalking has official began!***

Interesting......

I mean the last 2 weeks that is!

Tuesday (9/21/10) my Dad had Surgery on his R knee. Cory (my brother) went to the hospital with him, so I was at home with 2-five year olds. It was fun. I decided to let them "style" (a term I use loosely)my hair. They had a blast and enjoyed the time with them.....

Brooke's Work

Jocelynn's Work

Then we had manicures and John took us 3 girls out to lunch! It was a very fun day! Dad's surgery went well. He is up and moving know and in hardly any pain!

Tuesday (9/22/2010) John and I took Jocey to the Rochester Fair. Overall I was unimpressed. They didn't have as many rides, vendors or animals. Jocelynn had a blast and wanted to ride everything (thankfully she isn't big enough...yet) including the zipper

and the freak out......

I think we have a daredevil on our hands!

Jocey also started a new school schedule this week....she will be going Mon., Tues., Wed., and Fri. from now on. Tuesdays are music class, she was missing them. Her teacher asked if there was anyway she could add Tuesdays. So after talking to John and Jocey about it, we decided it was a good thing!

Her first Tuesday (9/28/10) at school happen to also be picture day! I can't wait to see the proofs (which we should have back in a week). I hope there is at least one good one!!!!(they took 3 or 4 poses)

I had to make an appointment with my PCP, I started having some L side pain Thursday at work, and it seemed to get worse throughout the day. Thursday night (9/30/10) was awful. I hardly slept and I was in pain. So I went to my appointment to find out I have a UTI (Urinary Tract Infection), so I am on an antibiotic and hope to feel better tonight and get some sleep.

On the TTC front.....CD 21! What does that mean???? MORE bloodwork! Seems to be all I do! I am praying that this is our month! I have way too many woman (Some who I am close too) who are pregnant around me.....I wanna play too!!!!! The Dr. gave me antibiotics that are safe if I am pregnant. We should know yes or no in about 7-10 days!!!