Life.....

Life has a funny way of happening all around you.

John is still sick, and I am seriously starting to worry. I will give the antibiotics until Thursday to start working or I call the Dr. again. It has moved from his nose to his chest and I'm not playing around with that shit.

Other then life we have just been going day to day. I'm trying not to freak out since I only have 4 more days until testing!!!!! I kinda know in the back of my mind and in my heart that it will be a BFN. I have NO symptoms....not even the fake ones that my body likes to trick me with. But, never the less, I need to POAS just to make sure!!!!!

Jocelynn has been so busy lately. My Mom taught her the Hokey Pokey, so she has been running around singing that all week. Also just dancing up a storm. She can't hear music without wiggling her little bottom. It is the cutest thing. Every day she amazes me with something she does or says. She really is turning into an adorable little girl with a personality most would die for....LOL (but I may be a bit partial....lol) He latest is saying WOOHOO after something that she is interested in doing. For instant at dinner I will say "dinner's ready." and she will Woohoo all the way to the table....LOL Also I have started having to give her choices on items. Such as what to wear, drink, or eat for lunch. If I say "Jocelynn come here so we can get dressed". She will look at the outfit and say "Mommy, I don't love it!" WHAT? *shock* But if she is given the choice between 2 outfits she is happy. Also I have started letting her choose her own hair piece. It makes brushing and fixing her hair much easier.

I am having a hard time letting her make some of these choices. I don't want to admit that she is growing up and able to make these choices on her own. I don't want to let my baby go...LOL....I know I am crazy. At the same time she is so much fun and bring so much joy to my life! I sometimes sit at night, watching her, and wonder what we ever did for 'entertainment' before she was born...LOL Now if only we could be blessed with another child!

And then I feel guilty for being so upset that I am having trouble with #2. So many of my wonderful girlfriends are struggling with #1. I would give up my chance of #2 for them to be able to have their first. They all deserve it soooooo much and I know that all of them will be blessed at some point and will be WONDERFUL mothers! They have been there for me in more ways then they will ever know and I don't know were i would be without them! Love you Ladies!!!!!!!!

Sick again!!!

Well, it has been almost 2 weeks. As you can imagine we have been busy and SICK....again! Saturday night we went to the Rochester Fair. Jocelynn had a great time, but all hell broke loose on Sunday. Jocelynn woke up with a temp of 102.4, which would come and go all day depending on if she was due for Tylenol or not. John has a Sinus/virus/infection thing going on (he hasn't been to work for the past 2 days). He went to the Dr. today and they put him on antibiotic and gave him a new allergy med, Clarinex, he had been taking Allegra but that gives him backaches so severe that he sometimes has a problem sleeping. Also the Acupuncturist told him in order to treat the back pain, she recommended he stop the Allegra and as soon as he stopped the pain went away.

I have not been feeling as bad as John and Jocelynn, but I am not 100%. Sneezing, stuffy nose, watery eyes, and a cough. I would have thought that it was just allergies, but I have been taking Claritin all week and it isn't helping. Today is the best day since Saturday. Jocelynn is not running a temp any longer, but she is still not 100% either. Dealing with a cough, runny nose and sneezing. Hopefully by the end of the week we will all be MUCH better!

On the TTC front, I am in the 2ww. Funny thing is I seem to not be as obsessive as usual. I believe the being sick and taking care of a sick child may be the thing that took my mind off of it all. Thankfully, John didn't get sick until after I ovulated! Timing this month was PERFECT......at least I think. It was nice to finally have my sex drive back! It had been missing for sooooo many months...LOL Testing is in 11 days....I am going to try and hold out, depends on how I am feeling. Wish us luck!!!!!!

Ramblings......

Thursday John had his 3rd acupuncture appointment. It went well. He will be going twice a week for a couple of weeks (Tuesdays and Thursdays). I will only update about them is anything new happens.

This week has been pretty good. FINALLY the computer seems to be fixed....MAN I HATE VISTA!!!! If I had my way we would have bought a Mac, but no John wanted a PC....Now he says he wished he had listened to me.....LOL...man I love when I am right!

Did some canning this week. Made applesauce and canned it and also processed two pumpkins (aka Muk muks) and placed them in the freezer in 2 cup measurements.....i think I will be all set for the holidays. I now have enough Zucchini for about 8-10 loafs of bread, enough pumpkin for 8 breads or 4 pies and 3 large jars of applesauce. We are thinking about going to Butternut Farm and picking some more apples. I would live to make apple pie filling and can it. I am praying that all this canning and freezing will make the holidays easier. I plan on doing a TON of baking this year since I will be home. I LOVE to bake!!!!!!

I have also started a list of 'supplies' for Thanksgiving. Because of the price of groceries, I am trying to pick up the items I can in advance....one or two each week. We will see how that goes.....just can't stand the price of groceries anymore. Makes me want to move out to no mans land and start a farm......raise and grow EVERYTHING myself. Who am I kidding....I don;t want to have to do that much work....LOL

On a side note! Welcome Jackson Robert!!!! He was born yesterday to a friend!!!!

Now I can't wait to meet Braydon and Charlotte, anytime now!!!!!! I am not so patiently waiting....LOL. And Derek in a few weeks!!!!!!!!!!