Too Much to Ask?!?!?!

I'm not sure were this is coming from. Maybe because I just finish 3 of the most amazing books I have ever read. Can't wait to read the 4th. Maybe I shouldn't torture myself and just learn that my husband is who he is and I love him unconditionally for that! But, can't he have just ONE SMALL ROMANTIC BONE IN HIS BODY? I know deep in my heart that he loves me more then words could ever express, but couldn't he try? Take my face in his hands and tell me how much I mean to him? That his world revolves around me and with out me nothing else matter? He will tell me he loves me, and even we bicker about who loves who more. I love that, but I ALWAYS am the one that prompts it.
Maybe I just being to picky? Maybe I am being too old fashion. I want to be lead into a room with his hand on the small of my back, open the doors for me to enter, hold the car door for me, place his arm protectively around me when we are out. Maybe I was just born in the wrong era? Instead I found a husband who has a hard time with public displays of affection. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to make out in public (although it may spice up our life...LOL) but just the small things. Like when we are out and I shiver, place a warm arm around me. Lean over and kiss my forehead to show me you care.
For example, Jocelynn and I have been sick for the last 2 days. Today my Mom had off so she watched Jocelynn and I spent the day in bed. John came home and not once thought to come up and see how I was feeling or if I needed anything. And then he wondered why I was upset. We seem to have fallen into this 'comfortable' life were he knows I am here and doesn't feel the need to try. I want the beginning of the relationship back. The way he made me feel special. Not with gifts, with his attention.
I do this often. I don't want to change him, I just wish..... I do this when I find a great book or movie that is romantic and I wish and pray that John would read the book or watch the movie and take notes.

As all things, this too will pass and I will be content again with what I have. I know I am the lucky one, I know he loves me and He is my world. Just sometimes I just wish.........

CD1

So much for the pregnancy symptoms (soar bb's, Nauseousness and tired all the time) and wishful thinking! This morning AF showed and I couldn't be more depressed about it. I am just tired of this rollercoaster ride and want to get off! Unfortunately I won't get of until I hear the greatest sentence on earth: "you ARE pregnant!!!!"

So I will have my pity party today and then tomorrow I will be ready to tackle the next cycle! This cycle John and I decided to try Soy Isoflavones. I figured it still fits into my "no meds until March" because it is natural! I hope we don't have to go back to the Dr. in March and this is the little help that we need! Wish us luck!

Not to go find something bad for me to snack on.....so much for my diet today!

Twilight!!!

All I have to say is if you haven't read the book, you need to!!! It was a great book! I started it last night (1/24/09) after Jocelynn went to bed at about 9pm, read until 11 pm, was up at 5am and finished the book about 1pm! I just couldn't put it down! Now i can't wait to read New Moon and the rest of the series!!!!! Plus, I can;t wait until the movie is on DVD (3/21/09) so I can watch that too!!! Wish now I had gone to see it in the theaters!