Crazy!!!

This week has really showed me just how crazy some people are. Between the crying over the gay marriage right not passing and the Ft. Hood shootings it is scary in this world. I am just in aw with what some people will go to to prove a point and so sod for the families affected. My prayers go out to them.

Wednesday we were able to get a bit of stuff done. Not only the usual grocery shopping but we were able to find Jocelynn's birthday dress at Sears. She picked it out abd I have to say she looks beautiful in it! I will be taking out family pictures this weekend as long as the weather holds out and it doesn't get too cold.

The princess dress!

We are still waiting on on our PCP to call us with information on the referral for John's specialist appointment. Looks like John will be calling him again on Monday!

Congratulations to all my CO sisters who have recently received their wonderful BFP!!!!! I am over the moon happy for all you ladies!

Seeing a Specialist

John's appointment didn't go as I expected. The Dr. said that the vericocele is not the reason for his low sperm count because his morphology and motility are good. She said that the morphology and motility are what is usually affected when the vericocele is the reason for infertility.

So we are off to see a specialist at Mass General. Waiting to speak to our PCP for a referal, hoping to get that this week and hoping for an appointment with the specialist by the end of the year.

I'm kinda numb right now. Then as I was leaving the appointment and heading to work I heard 2 commercials on adoption (2 different stations).

I'm not sure what to do anymore. I guess we are waiting again......

Happy Halloween!!!!!

I can't believe Halloween is here. That means the rest of the year is going to fly by!

Trick or treating was fun......short.....but fun! We went to 3 houses, Jocelynn looked at me and said "mommy, I'm done. Can we go home?" She wanted to go home and eat her candy......lol I was a little disappointed, but she really didn't need all that candy.

My little pirate....arrrrrrghhhhh

We have also been working on cleaning out one of the spare bedrooms upstairs. We want to put all of Jocelynn's toys up there! I am hoping to finish this project this week.

John has his surgery consult on Monday. I will update again then! Have a great weekend!

On to yet another cycle!

CD1 today! Not a big shocker since I have been spotting for 2-3 days. I just always get a little hopeful that this is the month that our dream comes true. It would have been very fitting to get pregnant the month before John;s surgery.....lol. It just wasn't in the cards for us.

John's surgery consult is coming up fast. 11/2 to be exact. I feel strange being excited and worried at the same time. I hate the fact that John has to have surgery but is also an answer to a lot of the issues he is dealing with. I am by no means thinking this is going to solve everything. In fact it may solve nothing, but we will never know until we go down the path laid before us. We have to try all the options and starting with the easiest and least expensive is a good idea. I know it sounds funny to call surgery easy and inexpensive, but the other treatments are much more involves and more out of pocket cost....not to mention IVF is around $30,000 an pop. Insurance pays for NONE of this.

Let's not step up on that soap box. I could go on and on..........but i won't.

Life has been crazy it seems. Halloween is right around the corner and I hope the rain lets up so we can take Jocelynn trick or treating on Friday night. She is going to be a Pirate and I will post pictures over the weekend. Here is her halloween picture we sent out. She had to have the picture taken with Spanky!

October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Please keep these families in your thoughts and prayers and light a candle from 7-8pm!